Thursday, April 23, 2009

Jangan Futur

Assalamualaikum,

Aku bukan apa hanyalah manusia. Sering dihadapi dengan pelbagai masalah. Kebelakangan ini, saya asyik diperangi dengan perang pemikiran. Kadangkala, selalu terdengar cakap syaitan itu. Dahulu bentuk perang pemikiran ku lain. Sekarang pula lain. Sungguh pandai syaitan itu memanipulasikan dan menghiaskan futur-futurku ini. Selain itu, aku jua seringkali mudah berputus asa. Lebih-lebih lagi apabila exam finals sedang dekat. Aku selalu mengingatkan kata kata Ibuku, "Leha preparing for exam is like preparing for battle(peperangan)!" Jadi sahlah ayat ini sangat sangat terkena pada aku.

Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang, padahal itu tidak menyenagkan bagimu. Tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu lebih baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.
(Al-Baqarah:216)

Wahai orang-orang beriman! Apabila kamu bertemu dengan orang-orang kafir yang akan menyerangimu, maka janganlah kamu berbalik membelakangi mereka(mundur)
(Al-Anfal:178)



Means dont' give up and leave the battle! But if i still follow syaitan and give up, this is where i'll end up. =S Takut nye!!!

Dan barang siapa mundur pada waktu itu........orang itu kembali membawa kemurkaan dari Allah. Tempatnya ialah neraka Jahanam, dan seburuk-buruk tempat kembali"
(Al-Anfal:179)

“……dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dari rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yang kafir.”
(Yusuf:87)

Adakah saya ni seperti sikap orang kafir? Adakah kemalasanku boleh membawaku ke Neraka? Padahal sudah ku tahu bahawa Medic ini merupakan Fardu Ain-Kifayah (Ustaz Amin explain).

Sedihnya hati ini....

“Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah. dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati,padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman.”
(Ali-Imran: 139)

Jika saya ini orang2 beriman. Itu tak komfem lagi.....hmmmm. Takpe Leha, takpe Allah tak tengok result. Allah tengok usaha. Ingat tu Leha. Jangan malas malas...hei apa nak jadi ni....

FOCUS!


grrrrr
xoxoxox

ps: wont be posting for some time after this.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Meet my friend Bret Martin



Around five months ago, i came to know this Youtube user named ClevonAmerica. I have been watching many of his videos. I was touched about what he had to say about Islam. He is not a Muslim, though he believes in a God. His name is Bret Martin.

Bret really inspired me to look deep into my self. He actually made me think about how i as a Muslim should react towards other people of other faiths. He said that Islam is such a beautifull religion, but sadly many Muslims dont want to show it and tell it to the world.

Through his videos, you will also learn about his past experiences. Bret is a colon cancer survivor. He had a ileostomy that was later reversed. He said his cancer saved his life because it woke him up from the deep coma he in was in for so many years. I could kind of relate to the things he says because i also feel like i just woke up from my comma a year ago. He now is happily marrid with five children. Two of them are adopted. The recent one is from Ethiopia!

I always pray and hope that one day Bret will become a Muslim because though he does not know it yet, i'm sure deep down inside he knows that Islam is the religion for all mankind.

Several quotes i'll never forget he said is that, "When you judge people, don't judge them with a broad brush because you are going to effect other people who are innocent together with that brush." and "Remember every person is their individual soul, their individual mind"

Thanks Bret for your friendship and you beautifull kind words. You will always be my inspiration. May you find true peace and may we meet in Jannah someday insyaAllah. =)

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Can you hear the people calling?

Salam sejahtera dan apa khabar buat pembaca, ni nak cakap dari hati ke hati tau. Tak skema tau. Awal-awalje skema sikit pastu tak..hehehe

Merupakan satu sunnatullah(ketentuan Allah) di dalam hidup kita dimana akan ada orang yang sentiasa memanggil kita kearah kebaikan. Mungkin hari ini guru kita, mungkin semalam ibu bapa kita, dan boleh jadi juga rakan-rakan kita sendiri. Apabila kita dipanggil untuk melakukan sesuatu kebaikan tersebut, tanyalah diri kita sendiri, adakah kita buat tidak hirau dan hanya masuk telinga kanan dan keluar telinga kiri? Ataupun adakah kita terima nasihat tersebut dan seterusnya bergerak untuk melakukan sesuatu tentangnya?....

Hey can i just let you in a little secret...i was like you before. I didn't want to listen to what everyone told me to do. I was like a rebel in my family. I was most of the time selfish towards people around me. I thought being the bad girl was "COOL" and i thought the whole world revolved around me. me. me. me. me...selfish kan?

But now i tak nak jadi orang seperti itu lagi. Sebab apa tau. I learnt that dalam dunia ni....semua benda yang kita buat dekat orang akan datang balik kepada kita. I had to learn it the hard way ofcourse. Masa tuh my whole world crumbled right infront of my eyes. Everything i did only brought more destruction than good. I didn't even know how to solve that problem at that time. I was stranded in my own mess.

Pada masa itu, tiada orang di sis kiri dan kananku yang dapat kuluahkan perasaanku. Aku bukan seperti orang lain, mempunya rakan-rakan yang ramai. Semua rakan-rakanku kebanyakannya boleh kata 'fake friends' lah. Diri terasa sangat asing kerana rasa seperti tiada orang kisah tentang aku. Pada saat itu juga aku berdoa kepadaNya untuk betul betul berubah. Untuk menjadi orang yang kedua tadi. Iaitu mendengar nasihat orang. Lebih tidak mementingkan diri sendiri. Tapi masalah tersebut tidaklah terus hilang dengan sekelip matanya.

Oh sesekalinya tidak.

I had to work REALLY hard to change my life. So i did. I tried all possible ways to ask from my Rabb to please take this deep depression away from me. Takyah kisahlah apa orang nak cakap.. Yang penting kita buat apa sahaja yang kita mampu. Tahutak, aku pada masa itu rasa sangatlah hina kerana sebeum ini telah banyak dosa-dosa yang telah aku lakukan. Sangat malu untuk meminta tolong pada Tuhan pada masa itu. Tapi, disudut hati ada juga rasa harap. Harap Dia tidak terlalu marah pada diriku ini. Harap dosa-dosaku diampunkan.

Tetapi,

Masaalahku masih tidak terselesai...

Lepas tuh mulalah merajinkan diri untuk membaca tafsir Al-Quran yang sebelum ini tidak pernahku buka. Tak pernahku fikirpun sebelum ini untuk membaca maksud-maksud yang tersirat di dalamnya. Engkau mesti terfikir, fuiyo Quran! Memang, itu mungkin kata-kata yang akan terkeluar dari mulut rakan-rakanku. Tapi aku tak peduli apa orang nak kata. Lantak aku lah! Ish!

Anyways, while flipping through the pages datanglah kepada ayat ini,

Dan barangsiapa yang mengerjakan kejahatan dan menganiaya dirinya, kemudian ia mohon ampun kepada Allah, niscaya ia mendapati Allah Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang. (An-Nisa:110)



Air mataku mula mengalir. Ya Tuhanku! Betapa pemurahnya Engkau. Sehina-hina manapun aku ini engkau sangguh akan mengampunkan aku?? Akupun teruslah tutup Quran itu and tidur sambil menangis di bawah selimut. Aku cuba untuk tidur tapi tak berjaya-jaya. Akupun termenung dalam kegelapan dan mula fikir tentang orang-orang yang pernah aku aniaya sebelum ini. My mom, my bro, my sis, budak kat sekolah tu, pastu cikgu Physics...hmmmm... and the list goes on and on. Malamtu aku betul-betul mintak kat Allah supaya perbaikkan hubungan aku dengan mereka semua.

Lepastu akupun sedar kenapa takboleh tidur. Sebab aku lupa baca doa sebelum tidur. Masa kecik-kecik dulu aku dan abangku(zd) tidur sebilik. Kita orang rajin baca doa tidur sama-sama sebab takut nanti hantu takde-kepala tu masuk melalui tingkap atas yang terbuka. Dah tua-tua ni malas pulak nak baca. Lepastu baru aku tidur dengan nyenyak. huhuhu

So after that from one good thing led to anotherlah. Bila kita ada niat untuk berubah tu, Allah for sure akan tunjukkan jalan-jalan Dia untuk kita.

Dan orang-orang yang berjihad untuk (mencari keridhaan) Kami, benar-benar akan Kami tunjukkan kepada mereka jalan-jalan Kami. Dan sesungguhnya Allah benar-benar beserta orang-orang yang berbuat baik.(29:69)



Sekarang, persepsiku tentang dunia telah berubah. Aku tidak senang goyah dengan cabaran- cabaran yang menghadapiku. Hati menjadi lebih tenang apabila mengingatkan Tuhan. Sekarang aku dah belajar di universiti. Mengambil jurusan kedoktoran. InsyaAllah akan aku usuhakan untuk belajar bersungguh-sungguh untuk mendapat keredhaan dariNya. Walaupun aku mendapat biasiswa dari kerajaan untuk melanjutkan pelajaran, tapi aku tahu yang memberinya bukanlah kerajaan tetapi Rabbku sendiri.

Katakanlah: "Sesungguhnya Tuhanku melapangkan rezki bagi siapa yang dikehendaki-Nya di antara hamba-hamba-Nya dan menyempitkan bagi (siapa yang dikehendaki-Nya)". Dan barang apa saja yang kamu nafkahkan, maka Allah akan menggantinya dan Dialah pemberi rezki yang sebaik-baiknya. (Saba 34:39)


So aku cerita nibukan nak sindir engkau ke apa. Just nak sharing je. Kan sharing is caring. Aku sekarang tengah cuba untuk tak jadi takterlalu selfish. Study study, tapi harus ada juga masa untuk dilapangkan kepada rakan-rakan dan keluarga tersayang. Itulah yang di tuntut sebenarnya oleh Tuhan kita. Ok harap - harap post aku kali ini tak terlalu panjang dan membosankan untuk dibaca. Apa-apapun kelemahan itu datang dari dirku sendiri dan segala kebaikan datangnya dari Allah. BYe awak. Muuuaaah!=)

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

An Idea to start Journal writing

The following is a list of starting places. If you don't know what to write about, try one of these.

1. Pick a current issue. Describe variously held positions. Respond to the issue or to one of the positions.
2. Pick a recent personal experience. Describe it. Analyze your feelings about it, answering the question, "Why do I feel this way?"
3. Express something that has been bothering you. Try to discover why it is bothering you. Propose a solution.
4. Describe a place. Discuss the feelings associated with it. Tell an event that happened there.
5. Describe a feeling and try to discover what is prompting it.
6. Liken an event, object, or feeling to something different. Try to draw as many parallels between the two as possible.
7. Imitate someone else's style, but use your own subject.
8. Copy a saying or short passage from someone else's writing (story, book, poem, essay). Tell what it means to you, how you feel about it, and why.
9. Explain what you learned about yourself in your first job.
10. Explain a worship service you have participated in to a person who has never gone.
11. Create your dream apartment.
12. Write down every thing that is within six feet of you.
13. Write about the first time you returned home after leaving.
14. Describe a process you often go through: brushing teeth, programming the VCR, ordering pizza.
15. Describe your most memorable celebration experience--a birthday, holiday, wedding, graduation.
16. Close your eyes and listen. Describe everything you hear.
17. Close you eyes and feel your surroundings. Describe everything you feel.
18. Do something you've never done, and then write about it, describing what you did and how you feel about it.
19. Write down the lyrics of your favorite song; explain what they mean.
20. Describe something you use all the time (a pen, a fork, the sidewalk) and describe it from a new perspective.
21. Write a poem.
22. Go someplace you never go alone--out to eat, bowling, a show-- and explain how you feel.
23. Explain the plot and describe the characters of a book you want to write.
24. Write a character sketch of someone you are close to and admire. Describe their appearance, their mannerisms, their speech. Tell a story about them.
25. Write a character sketch of someone who aggravates you or of someone who makes you angry.
26. Write a scene in which you say something you wish you had said (but didn't).
27. Watch an animal for a while and make up a life story about it.
28. Dream a little. Describe what kind of life you will have ten years from now.
29. Walk down memory lane. Tell stories of your past experience. Describe people you once knew. Describe places you've been. Tell how you used to do something.
30. Assume the role of a character in history and write to another character in history.
31. Compare a modern TV program with a similar one that runs in reruns.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Justice Vs Forgiveness…. Which one is better?

Justice Vs Forgiveness…. Which one is better?

All Muslims claim to know that love, forgiveness, kindness and charity
are facets of their faith. It’s the same with every other major religions out there I’m sure, whether Christianity, Judaism, Hinduism and many others.

If we all claim to be apart of any one of these religions, how come there
is still so much suffering in this world? Could it be that we are not really practicing our faith as we should be anymore? Have we all gone to a degree whereby we separate religion with our daily actions? If we all agree that this world was created by a Supreme Being. Why are we not obeying the laws that were put down to us by Him?

How many more children, women and men have to die in Palestine to make us wake up and see that we all need to set aside our differences and stand
together to fight for world peace!? How many more does it take for us
to see that I am you and you are me and we are all stuck in this world
together? We can't go anywhere else!? There is no point in fighting
over a piece of land. I mean can’t we all just learn to get along?

Throughout the world, a “peace fighter” named Bret Martin ones said "Who do I have to hate to be your friend? When are we going to see that us is them?" What he was
referring to, are the types of friendship people nowadays are building
with one another out of the hatred of someone else. By right we should not
hate anybody and we should certainly not support people who are taking
the human rights of others for what ever reason. Imagine, if you had a child that had died in your arms, how would you feel? You see, mothers everywhere love their children and would do anything to sacrifice their life to protect them. No love of a mother to her child is worth more or less than another in this world.

A change needs to be made in each and everyone of us. What we all can do is not only to give our support to those who are taking action in helping to heal the world. But what we also should do is help spread the message of peace, love, kindness and forgiveness to
one another. If you are online and you are having a dialog with somebody who is offensive and rude, try to show them some love and make them feel that in each and everyone of us, we all want the same thing. That is true peace and happiness in this life.



MERCY Malaysia appeals to the public to donate to the PALESTINE RELIEF FUND
http://www.mercy.org.my/

Would you like to learn how to bring world Peace? Visit here and find out how.
http://www.youtube.com/user/clevonamerica

The SHMINISTIM. Have you heard of them? I have. Once I knew about them
I had to do something. Please show them your support at
http://www.december18th.org/

Saturday, November 1, 2008

A Documentary about the freemasons and their agenda.

'A society that believes in nothing will label those who believe in something as fundamentalist or fanatics. But at least they get their ideas across and do something whereas those who believe in nothing will have fear and doubt andspeculations against ppl who DO believe in something. And that fear makes them want to take stupid actions. The world is yet again at war but the winners will be with those who carry and speak the TRUTH in the end. Amen.